yawn...

I've been struggling with insomnia the past few nights...which is really annoying considering that my new day gig has miraculously helped me with my arthritic back. oh, well—for the last week or so around 1:30 I awaken and either toss and turn which makes the wif join me in my sleeplessness or I just head downstairs...this seems to confuse my cat—he starts following me around with a longing in his eyes that can only say "c'mon it's time to feed me right?"

meanwhile the red flops can't seem to catch a break. they have the uncanny ability to play to the level of their competition, lately this means losing 2/3 from the devil dogs, and last night against AAA Witchita

I'm supposed to "wake up" at 5:15, it's now 3:30..dare I attempt to go back to sleep?

a long time coming...

holy cow has it been 3+ months?
ok...so here's the deal, my life got really out of hand, but it's all good now. in fact it's much better than all good. long story short is that I just (finally) changed day gigs.

but of course there is a long story.
I had been working at the former employer for 9+ years. it was a great job for about 7 of those years, and the last 2+ steadily deteriorated until things were pretty much intolerable. trouble is I didn't realize just how toxic my former situation really was until this past week, not coincidentally my first week at the new gig. since I left my former job the following has happened; I haven't needed any medication for my arthritic back, my wife and I have begun communicating again, overall I feel re-energized, and I sincerely wish that everyone can experience this. I had no idea the degree of stress that I have been carrying over from my former workplace to home and beyond. the peace that I'm beginning to feel is almost illicit—there are moments when I catch myself thinking that I don't deserve to feel this good.


alright already, this is getting out of control sappy...
oops, sorry....at any rate this also means of course that I've had bigger fish to fry for the last few months...but I'm back now